it’s getting better:) mars 17, 2008

I start to realize how sad i sound on my blog, ha ha. But it’s something with that, i always have a need to write when i am sad more than when i am happy unfortunately… Anyway, i just want to say it’s getting better! I am getting better:)

We started up our project, check it out; www.pangeaday.org it really inspires me and i belive we can do a lot of that, the pharmes are really free for us in this project. Well, there is to mention that we are just getting started, so we have a lot of work ahead, like checking out the contacts in Mumbai and Goa and see what’s been done until now. And hopfully get some people to invest in our part of this. But this project will make me go and go and go!

What else, there are all these small stuff happening like changing hostel, speaking to new people, checking out a fantastic jazz club and been to a art exebition. But i guess i am just bad at getting down all the details that also matters, and makes my day a day. So let me just quickly tell you how nice it was finally enjoying art again. It is quite hard to find like galleries or art in that way like paintings and so on. But there is ofcause a big art to just walk on the streets and looking at people. But you get my point…? Anyway, that was a short time getting away from the chaotic life and just getting into ”my own imaginary world”. It is strange how it affects me, and this wasn’t really any etraordinary exebition. So i think i have to check out some more art… art … art.. maybe sound a bit ”ohh… art, getting, away…”= ”flower power thinking”, but it is true. Again i just want to point out the amazing effect that has on me -art.  Last year i visited the Gogenheim museum in Bilbao and i am still blown’ away by thinking of Anselm Keifer and his art. Maybe it’s that it reminds me so much of my parents and it might be that i was born with loving and hating it in my heart. Right now i am loving it:)

Time to get some zleeeep….   

A ”shitty” day mars 13, 2008

Been sick for 5 days now, my stomache is not in phase with my head so i am getting a bit weak and tired of this now… The first days i was just accepting the fact and thought that ”hey, everyone will get sick sometime so it’s fine with me than it’s done”. But 5 days and it’s not getting better, get’s on my nervs. Than we moved to another hostel thanks God but as soon i stepped in there and i started to relax i falled in to tears. Compalaining i have a hard time handeling this place, all the people, missing my boyfriend, not beeing accepted as a woman and so on and so on…. But than i had some sleep and i found out thats the best medecine! and of cause my Team, we are really good in taking care of each other and i really appriceate that.

Some of us are going away for some days to Goa next week, looking forward to that! Beeing able to dress as i like and enjoying the sea and hopefulle a bit more quiet place:)

8 March and dogs mars 10, 2008

I’v been touristy busy the last days so bad at getting down words on this blog. And i missed writing about the ”womans day” the 8 of march! We went on a demonstration here in Mumbai, joined a bunch of strong women standing up for our rights. It was pretty amazing to be a part of that here in india. There was about 200 women demostrating and i was thinking ”oh, this is really good, but hey there are about 50 milion women living in this city… where are everyone?” But as soon as i saw their determent eyes i forgot about all that and thought that this is a big step anyway.

My new hobby here as i get so tired of all these people everywere is to make a photo album of all these dogs! I know it sound really strange , but it is fascinating how about 90% of them sleeps during the day when all these people runs around and how they a bit agressive wake up in the night. Looking at them during the day reminds me of the cool,  lazy life that you don’t really see here during the day.  Look at this picture:

 

The day get a turn mars 7, 2008

So the second day is slowly getting better;) Some of us Kaospilots went on a little trip today to the markets. It was as lovely as in the films. Bananas, ananas, spices, flowers, nuts, oranges, lemons and so on and so on… But also a met market; as it is so hot the meat market was a horror, i meen the smell; uhh.. like old, sticky, bloody meat-smell! I am not that picky at smells, but this was really something out of; i don’t know what- anyway a experiance richer. Also we had the great plesure to play with my favorite material; silk! We went into one of many silk ”shops” and they just throwed the material all around us , so at least i bought a scarf so far. Mum- i promise to get you something from there as well:)

Another thing that i start understanding is the importancy of ignoring people, it feels a bit strange but it is the only way for a girl not to have 10 men around you at once. My next step will be dressing in Sari and becoming a indian woman… though i am so pale i will have to work on that as well.

Sumasumarium; my bad morning turned out quite well in the end:)

In Mumbai mars 7, 2008

Arrived yesterday at 7.15 Indian time… oh, yes Mumbai…. well… no worries to get a tan as there are so much smog ower the town so the sun doesnt go thrue.  Had a really bad morning as i couldn’t sleep tonight, the toilet doesn’t flush, the phone was calling 3 times this morning at 7 o’ clock and i had a fight with the reception. So right now i am looking out at all these people and wondering how i will manage to stay in the city for 3 months. But the food is delicious, that is possitive and the heat is making me happy and the colours/flowers everywhere makes me shine. Well, to be continued…

slowly, slowly mars 3, 2008

Arrived in Malmö at 14.00 today and been slowly, slowly cleaning the appartment since than. Uhh..  i  am really starting to realize my age. Whith that i mean i am actually starting to appriciate the silence and the comfort there is something inside me that can see the beauty of ”beeing in the moment”, there is no need for doing crazyness, there is no need for wild me. The wildness is to actually just stand in the peace. But what i am doing now is packing….again!… I used to love packing and feeling i am on the road, but i don’t know if i am seeking that right now in my life. It’s not that i am not looking forward to this, i really do. But there is a strange feeling i cant put words to…. We’ll see, maybe i find my inner self in the yoga in Mumbai… haha.

”Sunday fever” mars 2, 2008

I am trying to get started on this blog thing, but it seam a bit hard writing as i am quite use to write ”unpublic”. Anyway i guess it will be easyer soon.

When i was little i used to get fever two days before traveling abroad, don’t know how its called in english, but it calls ”rese feber” in swedish. Something like ”traveling sickness”. And today i actually started to feel a bit dizzy… As we are leving to Mumbai on wednesday i guess the fever is slowly letting me know it is SOON. Oh so soon…

But i had a great weekend, went on the premier on the performance my mum just finished, enjoyed a nice party afterwards and been drinking coffe with friends. Also been on nice walks , enjoying the nature and the silence. And of cause just been close to my boyfriend… Uhh.. that’s gonna be hard beeing so far away from each other. But on the other hand i appriciate the relationship; me-you-us.  Experiance new things on your own, than share something more to the relationship, to develope yourself and than develope the relation. That is for me a meeningful ”me-you-us” relation.

Love, religion and books februari 28, 2008

I am always so amazed by love…. Met my friend today that i haven’t met in a long time. She was so shiny happy and i understod she was in love. Have not seen her like this in a long time but i know what it is when i see it. It is”love in the air”;) It is amazing how people can change just because of those giggeling butterflyes inside. It always makes me think how powerful love is…

Got 3 new books today about myths and religion and biography, so now i am going to look into the power of religion… do you think that can win in a battle with love?

Well we all know the story about Shakespears; Romeo and Julia, right…  

Yoga… februari 27, 2008

Ett slags avslut på skolan i dag: att göra Yoga i en timme i 40 graders värme! Helt fantastiskt, jag har nog aldrig svettats så jämt och så mycket på mycket, mycket länge. Det kanske låter snuskigt, men damn it vad härligt + att man blir ännu vigare i värmen. Längtar bara mer till Mumbai nu…

februari 18, 2008

Idag har jag skypat med Siri och Patriks som redan är i Mumbai, blir så sjukt peppad! De gör ett fantastiskt jobb och resan känns så nära. Lägenheten uthyrd och allt börjar bli mer och mer verkligt. Vem jag än träffar i Team1 är det Mumbai som är samtalsämnet. Så fort Wippies lanseringen är klar så är biljetterna bokade!!!!!!!